Friday, November 14, 2008

beauty in ugly?

Once upon a time...
there live a lil' girl.....
who always think that the body can make us look sexy,
the face can make us look pretty
but it is the mind that makes us look beautiful...

i was (or am?) having my post-jaga syndrome
but this time it was worse
i couldn't sleep, at all!
my shift ended at 730wib
i walked home, reached my room at 8am
i didn't manage to change into my baju jaga last night
so i wore my kuliah attire the whole night
bayangkanlah balik coat putih berbau peluh
memang kene rendem extra wangi siketlah nanti~~~
so here i am, in between the break on the ugly betty dvd watch-ing
ada 12 episodes, penatla plak mata ni...............
so updatelah blog~ hehehe ;D

i am not a huge fan of betty (of ugly betty)
or even betty lafea (tapi dulu selalu gak nengok, hehe)
i do agree cerita ni ada message2 tersendiri
but what attracted me to this ugly betty series
is it's soundtrack: the beauty in ugly
i love this song so much!!!
i love it's lyrics
(sangat menyentuh, ada siket2 related to my life kot?hohoho, perasan~)
i love its message
i love the rhythm
i love the vidclip
& most of all, i love the singer! haha~
here's the vidclip from youtube
(this is his very own homepage, cool ok!)
i wanted to be able to play guitar like mraz do

mraz in a concert with good charlotte band

oh & here's the lyrics too....
i've included the song in my sing-a-long list as well
do enjoy the song, as much as i do! *winkwink*

She's so big-hearted
But not so remarkable
Just an ordinary humble girl
Expecting nothing as we're made to think
it's a pretty person's world

Well you are beautiful
And you better go show it
So go look again
You gotta be true to your own
If you really wanna go to the top
Do you really wanna win
Don't believe in leaving normal
Just to satisfy demand

Well if you wanna get free
And if you want to do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
See the beauty in ugly

Well you are fresh
Your face is fabulous
Don't forget you're one of a kind
When nobody's checking the deeds you've done
And nobody's hearing your cries
You make all the fashion statements
Just by dressing up your mind

And if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
See the beauty in ugly
See the beauty in ugly

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
See the beauty in ugly
See the beauty in ugly

(the beauty in ugly- jason mraz)

till then,

p.s : met obgyn residents dr o'neil & dr alex masa jaga tadi, kangennnnnnnnnn bangetttt lama ga ketemu! tadi terubat rindu jap, miss u both a lot docs, take greatest care!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

gudluck mates?

Once upon a time...
there live a li' girl....
thought that the people she meets
are those who affect her life,
and the success and downfalls she experiences,
help to create who she is and who she becomes...
even the bad experiences can be learned from....

Since this week is an exam week,
i would like to wish these dear people
a very best of luck in their upcoming departmen kecik exam
(saya kat departmen beso, so belum exam lagi~ehehe)

To Intan yang kat Anaesthesi & Aliah yang kat Neurology,
make sure score A ok! i know u would =)

To Wani yang kat Anaesthesi gak & Dja kat Radiology,
since korang rajin2, jangan tak dapat A gak tau! ;D

To Z yang kat Psychiatry, make those 'jiwa' patients proud of u ;D

To my crazeeeee ex-groupiesss, THT 'gampang' kok~
(i nearly failed my ENT exam, haha), selamat ya!

To my happening obgynmates,
rock the exam like u oways do! *winkwink*

Do have faith, coz faith can move mountains
Reach for the moon, coz if u fail, u would still be amongts the stars
All the best peeps, study smart & pray hard
& do wish me luck for my another 6weeks in Paeds!
till then,

*currently listening to Celine Dion's Eyes On Me*

Saturday, November 8, 2008

lebaran moments?

juz wanna share few of my fav lebaran photos
& those edited by my brother too......... ;D

- din's editing -

atok & few of cucu2 lelakinya...

bila nengok gambar ni baru perasan yang ayah dah semakin tua..... =/

natasha : "i love main bunga api with my fav uncle~"

caption tu siapa yang cakap sebenonye?

our very own photographer who has a loooooooooooot
to learn in the photographysphere~

- din's captured-

new hairdo?

mak tengah baca sms2 raya~

boleh sama color plak ek?

post- jaga syndrome?

once upon a time...

there live a lil' girl.....
who thinks what a beautiful mess life is,

it's like picking up trash in dresses...

i had my 3rd paeds on-call yesterday
& it was very very very very very tiring... & exhausting!
i thought on-calling on weekend would not be as hectic as on weekdays
(that's what some of my friends who'd gone thru paeds rotation said)
buat apa je masa on-call?
follow-up, follow-up, follow-up
ada 5patients yang kena dipantau every 1hour
by the time checking the 5th patient,
it's already time to follow-up back to the 1st patient
kaki sangat pegal, sebab dapat duduk kejap je
tu pun masa isi patients' medical records
but Alhamdulillah yang bestnye ada residen dokter ni
yang sangat baik, bila jumpa dia je dia senyum
so at least hilanglah sikit rasa penat tu
(thank u doc, sebab mengajar valuable things on paeds)

i reached home nearly 8pm wib (shift ended at 7pm)
balik je campak bag, cepat2 tanggalkan baju yg dah berbau~
(bau peluh + bau paeds ward yg............eeeeeeeeee yucks!)
& took a loooooooong warm bath (kene scrub badan extra2 sket, haha)
after solat, thot of calling that somebody but he went for a futsal game
so i decided to have an early sleep...............

this morning, Alhamdulillah terjaga subuh, hehe
& here i am, still couching in my bed, malasnyeeeeee nk bangun!
i think i would like to sleep, for few more hoursssssssss.............
sampai ada rasa guilty sebab assignment epilepsy tak buat lagi, haha
hrm, m still that world's greatest sleepyhead *winkwink*

masa kat obgyn dept : i could sleep anywhere~

seriously sangat penat + ngantuk + malas --> typical post-jaga syndrome~
(m such a lazybummmm too!)
tapi ada banyak tugasan kena buat......
gotta have that green tea freeze (+ that gratis glazzy donut) later!
kasi semangat sket, haha~~~~~

(oh sejak bila sy jadi suka mengeluh ni? stop it ain! tak elok tau, ALLAH tak suka........)
guess i'd better get off this comfy bed now
time to take the morning bath!

till then,

p. s: that somebody who calls me his barney is a sleepyhead too....

What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess
when the only answer is yes

And through timeless words
And priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds
Not of this earth
And tides they turn
and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern
When we're wounded together
And we've torn our dresses
And stained our shirts
But it's nice today
Oh the wait was so worth it
- beautiful mess, jason mraz-

*currently listening to jason mraz's beautiful mess*

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

waiting for ayah & mak?

once upon a time...
there live a lil' girl.....
who thanks her GOD everyday
for HIS blissfulness on
giving her such a wonderful,
& loving family...

m counting the hours for both my parents to reach here
besok, waktu ni, ayah & mak dah ada kat sini *smileeeeeeeeeee*

ayah & mak cepatlah sampai....

tapi.....din ( my LIL' brother) couldn't make for the trip
as he's very very busy with his thesis
i wish u r coming too pumpkin!

rajin2 buat thesis adikku, biar cepat grad! nak kawen kan next year~?

m going to sleep with a large smile on my face later tonight
coz i know the sunshine's gonna bring her rays
& promise 3 beautiful days for me tomorrow!

till then,

p . s: wishing that somebody who calls me his barney is coming too...

Monday, November 3, 2008

missing my 3tats?

once upon a time...
there live a lil' girl....
who thinks that a true friendship
isn't being inseparable
but being separated
and nothing changes.....

i bumped into ezee during our lunch break today
as we were exchanging our hi-hi bye-bye
she said, "tak sukelah bedah toraks"
now i know she was stase-ing at the bedah toraks sub-div this week
i wanted to stop & asked what happened
but i knew that both of us had more important errands to attend to
as i walked back to my department (paeds), i realized that i miss my 3tats...

ain with her besties aka 3tats : aliah, ezee, intan

the 4 of us used to stay at the same hostel while we were back in jatinangor
we decided to get a house with 4 rooms as we had to move to bandung (since the teaching hospital is here)
unfortunately the tuan rumah tak bagi sewa the room that was supposed to be my room
since waktu masa tu dah mepet, i joined the other malaysians in a house which is 3mins walking distance from their house
at first i thought it should not be a problem for us to still lepak2 together
unfortunately it wasn't as easy as it seemed to be
clinical days are 1000X more hectic and exhausting than the campus days
masing2 dah makin busy, and masa untuk hangout sama2 pun dah makin kurang
to be sincere, i miss those moments when :
  • we walked back together from campus to kosan (= hostel) - masa ni masing2 eager to tell what had happened during the tutorial or skills-lab since kitorang jarang dapat group kecik sama2. hehe, keje kita time tu gelakkan orang, hahaha~
  • we bought & eat the laukpauk from kedai ibu kecik kat sebelah kosan (kedai ibu tu yang kecik, ibu tu gempal orangnya, ehe) - since kita malas nak jalan jauh2, kedai ni memang jadi port kitorang beli our daily meals, kadang2 memang rasa bosan, tapi takpela sebab sambal ibu ni enak bangetttt~
  • we watched the dvds - kita banyak nengok cite hantu ke dulu? tak pun lepak bilik intan joined dia nengok series, grey's anatomy & urhmmmm....oh the OC!hehe, or gi bilik berry tumpang nengok movies since dia je yang ada dvd player masa tu
  • we discussed for the soca / osce / mde exam the night sebelum hari H - after a long day studying ( or menjawab exam ques ke kertas soal turunan), we would squeeze into intan / ezee / dja's room & had our s-called group discussion on the exam ques or bertukar2 ideas dari apa yang kitorang dapat from tutorial or skills-lab. although masing2 dah capek, but kita memang sentiasa pastikan kita buat benda ni
  • we crashed dja's room! - main intention nak kacau dja, then end up bergossipssssssss! & of course la mintak makanan dja, esp kerepek mak & nenek dja yang sodap tu~
  • we celebrated the birthdays - we used to have this tradition, when the non- birthday girls would plan to buy / bake a surprise birthday cake & did some masak2 so that we could have a small birthday celebration of our own. in return, the birthday girl would give her 3 friends a birthday treat (kat indo ni birthday baby yang kene blanje). kita dah lama kan tak buat benda ni? 1 tahun ni if ada birthday salah sorang dari kitorang, we juzt managed to eat out together, tu pun belated. urhm, since this is our final year here, maybe kita patut do this again? lemme see, aliah's birthday's coming, what do you think girls?

last day tutorial : the wallpaper of fame~

urhm, there were lotssssa moments yang tak dapat nak diungkapkan di sini
but most important thing is, I MISS MY 3TATS........
to intan, ezee, aliah, always remember that ainul sayang korang, i love u guys, & i have cherished the times we spent together, & will always treasure our friendship till eternity.....
"flowers need sunshine, violets need dew, all angles in heaven know i need u. years may fly, tears may dry, but my friendship with you will never die"

F . L . O . W . E . R

Even though from here on in
our paths may change,
our lives may vary,
and our encounters less frequent,
there will always be the memories,
which bind us together,
memories of love, friendship and trust,
years comprised of joy, sadness and laughter,
experiences which could only be felt with the heart,
and times which live on forever in our thoughts,
and you see my friend,
even if we ever drift apart in our hectic lives,
remember this,
you mean so much to me and will ALWAYS be a friend for Life.

- N. Han -

till then,


p . s : missing that somebody who calls me his barney too....